Last Words Spoken

Speaking the final words to someone so important to me has taken the very breath from me. I don't believe any more. I don't believe I have another word to say.

I have been a captive in my apartment for the last 4 days, avoiding calls and SMS from people. Time has moved so abstractly and the hours have passed in an oddly painful way.

Life is continuing outside my windows with a tranquil apathy reserved for the unimportant and those filled with no more purpose. I have neither importance nor purpose any longer.

I need to escape this place but where can I run and hide from myself? I have selected the oddest life where solitude is polarised into a harsh focus and loneliness has a gravity of its own and pulls me down.

Any suggestions dear readers? Obi