Spiralling Down

Ever had one of those moments that shook every priority loose from its shelf and left every goal in question and shattered on the floor?
Well I had one a few days ago.
But this being the second time this has happened I took a road less travelled. I decided to get angry, justifiably so. But any time in my life when I have let anger win out - everything has self destructed. This situation is no different.
To summarise my week:

• Went Bowling and hurt my back again.


• Slipped over badly in the shower and gashed my leg open.


• Car battery died and that was the good part - let me see that my car leaks oil like a paper bag.


• Exploded my well capped temper and was unforgivably nasty to some one who will never speak to me again (still not sure it that is a bad thing)


• Missed my class with the EU inspector because of above mentioned car problem


• ... the list goes on...

Thinking about lost love and anger and futility and rage and tears and more tears and yelling and screaming because things were never going to be what I hoped they'd be no matter how much I sacrificed and loved...

What is left when love is gone?

Obi wants to know...